"did yo...

"did you get to see that lights are faded, and that heaven is overrated"" i can't stand to fly, i'm not that naive"the crappy zone lineup. allthough i do admit to loving the "it's not easy to beeee m-heeeee."even heroes have a right to dream.in art therapy class i drew that same picture i've been drawing for years. she said it would make a good final project.just cause i'm disturbed and draw the same picture over and over again just with different color schemes.the gallery class is going to prove to be all kinds of time consuming. like i have time, of all things.watercolor is going to be obnoxious as well. enh. it's what i get for having a bad attitude on the way into a class.i'm liking art therapy. although it's all girls. and i'd bet about half of them married.like girls in their what appears to be early twenties. and two even have newborns.they were talking about their wife/mom roles and i was like um, i still don't have the ME role even remotely figured out....scarythat's all i have to say about that

it's nice not h...

it's nice not have to worry about summerschool.real school starts in less than a week.have been considering taking the lsats. does that mean law school?lots of hanging out with people i've missed for way too long.can't define the relationship. feel so safe in his arms. need that safety. but why?and where is it going?pete said that i have to set my sights higher.fuck boys. is what i say.got my first school related email about a class i'm really excited about :)sometimes i forget i'm only twenty years old.sometimes it feels like i'm ancient.do i push myself too hard?or not nearly hard enough?what do i want?

haven't be...

haven't been home for days. days off in a row make it justso much harder to go back to work. i need to play the powerball...it's up to 100 million. whew-ee!became a citizen on friday, amer-I- Can. :)katie and logan came in yesterday.drew is now murray's next door neighbor. very odd.que sera, sera. said katie to me last night.and that is most definitely true.must go shower now.ooo, i got a last minute ticket for depeche mode, so i went! it was awesome,poe opened and she was really good. angry johnny.shower. now

clean. it's a...

clean. it's a good feeling.i bought a denim skirt for five bucks today. :)i should be doing physics. but i'm not. come on, c. rah rah c. maybe this will encourage it.you or a close friend will be married within a year.damn fortune cookie.store meeting tomorrow night. oh god. sooo drawn out and dramatic.have been pondering tattoo more. hm.need to go sleep.tomorrow i actually schedule my tonsillectomy. joys and wonders never cease.

And ...

And loveIs not the easy thingThe only baggageThat you can bringNot the easy thingThe only baggage you can bringIs all that you can't leave behindAnd if the darkness is to keep us apartAnd if the daylight feels like it's a long way offAnd if your glass heart should crackAnd for a second you turn backOh no, be strongWalk onWalk onWhat you got, they can't steal itNo they can't even feel itWalk onWalk onStay safe tonightYou're packing a suitcase for a placeNone of us has beenA place that has to be believedTo be seenYou could have flown awayA singing birdIn an open cageWho will only flyOnly fly for freedomWalk onWalk onWhat you gotYou can't deny itCan't sell it or buy itWalk onWalk onYou stay safe tonightAnd I know it achesHow your heart it breaksYou can only take so muchWalk onWalk onHomeHard to know what it isIf you never had oneHomeI can't say where it isBut I know I'm goingHomeThat's where the hurt isAnd I know it achesAnd your heart it breaksYou can only take so muchWalk onLeave it behindYou've got to leave it behindAll that you fashionAll that you makeAll that you buildAll that you breakAll that you measureAll that you feelAll this you can leave behindAll that you reasonAll that you care It's only timeAnd I'll never fill up all I find All that you senseAll that you schemeAll you dress upAnd all that you seeAll you createAll that you wreckAll that you hate

See the stone set ...

See the stone set in your eyes See the thorn twist in your side I wait for you Sleight of hand and twist of fate On a bed of nails she makes me wait And I wait without you With or without you With or without you Through the storm we reach the shore You give it all but I want more And I'm waiting for you With or without you With or without you I can't live With or without you And you give yourself away And you give yourself away And you give And you give And you give yourself away My hands are tied My body bruised, she's got me with Nothing to win and Nothing left to lose And you give yourself away And you give yourself away And you give And you give And you give yourself away With or without you With or without you I can't live With or without you With or without you With or without you I can't live With or without you With or without you

bought marv...

bought marvelous crap from pier one. big sale on frames. i got 25 clip frames for sixty bucks. no more matting for a while :)also bought a new file folder and some pens. i so live on the edge.but we had fun hanging out today and i got softserve. we just wandered through random stores for hours. it was Grrreat!i think i might attempt some physics now. and then bed.tomorrow is the review session and then i'm supposed to go out to lunch with michelle.that should at least be interesting.so tired...am gonna sleep more tonight.

oh lord this ...

oh lord this is a sign.i've worn out anna begins on the blue counting crowns cd.it has to be a sign.and oh, lord i'm not ready for this sort of thing.ps yoga yesterday made me sore.so then i went to work and i sliced my hand while stocking. what a retard.and i have to go again in a couple of hours.egh.it's hot in here.

oh lord this i...

oh lord this is a sign.i've worn out anna begins on the blue counting crowns cd.it has to be a sign.and oh, lord i'm not ready for this sort of thing.ps yoga yesterday made me sore.so then i went to work and i sliced my hand while stocking. what a retard.and i have to go again in a couple of hours.egh.it's hot in here.

yoga today, we...

yoga today, we'll see how that goes.i'm kinda excited. not so excited about the dentist appt i have after that. but you gotta do what you gotta do.

i just tried ex...

i just tried explaining to my mother why i'm so miserable at my job. she apparently thinks its my fault.fuck that.i need a new job.

i need a new job....

i need a new job. i hate my job! well, not the job itself, but the stupid ass people that surround me.i need out.

mast...

master to many and a saviour to none.stevie rules

Your ...

Your view on yourself You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girl/boyfriend you are looking for. You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship. You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love. You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. Your views on education Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. The right job for you. You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. How do you view success? You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Do not give up when you have not even started yet! Be courageous! What are you most afraid of? You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. Who is your true self? You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart, rather than your head, needs to solve. dilemma my heart needs to solve. that's the only part of this that is wrong. it is inded my head that needs to solve the dilemma.

ugh, teeth bleeding

teeth cleaning. want to take my tonsils out. not good.