owie. you'...

owie. you'd think i got run over by a semi, and not just had my tonsils out.motherfucker this hurts.

surge...

surgery scheduled to take place in less than eight hours.listening to stevie nicks in preparation for seeing her in nyc next month!I FINALLY GET TO GO TO NEW YORK!

"did yo...

"did you get to see that lights are faded, and that heaven is overrated"" i can't stand to fly, i'm not that naive"the crappy zone lineup. allthough i do admit to loving the "it's not easy to beeee m-heeeee."even heroes have a right to dream.in art therapy class i drew that same picture i've been drawing for years. she said it would make a good final project.just cause i'm disturbed and draw the same picture over and over again just with different color schemes.the gallery class is going to prove to be all kinds of time consuming. like i have time, of all things.watercolor is going to be obnoxious as well. enh. it's what i get for having a bad attitude on the way into a class.i'm liking art therapy. although it's all girls. and i'd bet about half of them married.like girls in their what appears to be early twenties. and two even have newborns.they were talking about their wife/mom roles and i was like um, i still don't have the ME role even remotely figured out....scarythat's all i have to say about that

it's nice not h...

it's nice not have to worry about summerschool.real school starts in less than a week.have been considering taking the lsats. does that mean law school?lots of hanging out with people i've missed for way too long.can't define the relationship. feel so safe in his arms. need that safety. but why?and where is it going?pete said that i have to set my sights higher.fuck boys. is what i say.got my first school related email about a class i'm really excited about :)sometimes i forget i'm only twenty years old.sometimes it feels like i'm ancient.do i push myself too hard?or not nearly hard enough?what do i want?

haven't be...

haven't been home for days. days off in a row make it justso much harder to go back to work. i need to play the powerball...it's up to 100 million. whew-ee!became a citizen on friday, amer-I- Can. :)katie and logan came in yesterday.drew is now murray's next door neighbor. very odd.que sera, sera. said katie to me last night.and that is most definitely true.must go shower now.ooo, i got a last minute ticket for depeche mode, so i went! it was awesome,poe opened and she was really good. angry johnny.shower. now

clean. it's a...

clean. it's a good feeling.i bought a denim skirt for five bucks today. :)i should be doing physics. but i'm not. come on, c. rah rah c. maybe this will encourage it.you or a close friend will be married within a year.damn fortune cookie.store meeting tomorrow night. oh god. sooo drawn out and dramatic.have been pondering tattoo more. hm.need to go sleep.tomorrow i actually schedule my tonsillectomy. joys and wonders never cease.

And ...

And loveIs not the easy thingThe only baggageThat you can bringNot the easy thingThe only baggage you can bringIs all that you can't leave behindAnd if the darkness is to keep us apartAnd if the daylight feels like it's a long way offAnd if your glass heart should crackAnd for a second you turn backOh no, be strongWalk onWalk onWhat you got, they can't steal itNo they can't even feel itWalk onWalk onStay safe tonightYou're packing a suitcase for a placeNone of us has beenA place that has to be believedTo be seenYou could have flown awayA singing birdIn an open cageWho will only flyOnly fly for freedomWalk onWalk onWhat you gotYou can't deny itCan't sell it or buy itWalk onWalk onYou stay safe tonightAnd I know it achesHow your heart it breaksYou can only take so muchWalk onWalk onHomeHard to know what it isIf you never had oneHomeI can't say where it isBut I know I'm goingHomeThat's where the hurt isAnd I know it achesAnd your heart it breaksYou can only take so muchWalk onLeave it behindYou've got to leave it behindAll that you fashionAll that you makeAll that you buildAll that you breakAll that you measureAll that you feelAll this you can leave behindAll that you reasonAll that you care It's only timeAnd I'll never fill up all I find All that you senseAll that you schemeAll you dress upAnd all that you seeAll you createAll that you wreckAll that you hate